I am the chaos and you are the cosmos

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

MK @ Boogeeeez!

Kavilove & I had a sudden urge to take a walk down memory lane to reminisce sec2/3 times.
Hence our Bugis exploration. All of you should try that. Pick a place and just explore, no cash required. Just comfy shoes and a water bottle! The other day however, I was feeling a little lost. This weird indescribable feeling that makes you feel dreamy in a pretty sucky way. I kept asking K why I felt that way and she feels that it's cus everything's kinda over for me for now, recording, PW, promos.. Maybe, cus sometimes when suddenly everything lifts itself up, instead of feeling relieved you feel empty. I was trying to hard to re-live the feeling I had the last time I was in Bugis but somehow I couldn't. God didn't let me. He most probably wants me to live this feeling so that next time I wouldn't wanna try to re-live THIS. But I think there's smth else to this emptiness. Sealed emptiness perhaps. I need to find things to do. I have to.

(ooh after I published this post I realised what it is.. haha I really think I'm too overwhelmed by so many things which I wanna accomplish that the thought of them just drains all the energy outta me and then they suddenly all vanish and make me think that there's nothing there in the first place..you know?)